So I went for a run to clear my head. I actually spent most of it talking to God, asking why, asking if He will heal Robin, since I know He can, but I was just asking if He would. In the event that isn't his plan, I only ask for a few good days where I can talk to my best friend again. I'm still praying. My faith is what is getting me through this right now.
I spent a lot of time thinking about little things that we used to do. Like going for walks, since that was the area I was running. It came to me, that the thing I'm going to miss the most is the little stuff. Going for walks with each other. Watching TV with each other, since there are only a few shows we like.
Going to Wal-Mart, even if it used to stress me out.
All those little things are the bread and butter of our relationships with one another. All the little talks, that you might think mean so little. The little things that are just the time you share with each other.
I remember when we were stationed at Meade, and would usually come up here on the weekend. We used to spend all our time talking on the ride up and back. All those things seemed so trivial.
To quote "The Crow", nothing is trivial.
This one won't be a long post, since I just don't have it in me tonight.
The Girls at our Cabela's trip.
Keeping you in my thoughts. I just this week lost a friend to cancer...40 years old, leaving a loving husband and 3 young boys behind. All week I've been grappling with the whys and hows. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Godspeed.
ReplyDeleteThere is never a good time for loss.
ReplyDeleteAaron, I'm sorry to hear abour Robin's passing. Take care of yourself and the kiddos. They need their daddy more than ever now.
ReplyDeleteAaron,
ReplyDeleteI am a friend of Kate's (I heart papers) and Stephanie's and I just wanted to say how deeply sorry I am for your devastating loss. Lifting you and your children up in prayer... ~jessica